Just A Bigger Closet

Remember how I complained in my last blog post about how all the hot guys I see are too short? I guess I should eat my words. I have science lab on Thursdays for plant biology. It's an obnoxiously long class, and I'm not really a science person, so it's usually pretty bland. My story begins a few weeks ago when we met for our first class. Because it was drop/add week, we only went over the syllabus and how to work a microscope. I had worked with microscopes in the past, and had pre-read the syllabus, and so class that day was extra boring. And when I get bored I zone out. And when I zone out I stare. This can get me into some pretty awkward situations, such as during this first class when I caught myself zone-out staring at the hot guy a couple tables over. Only that's not the bad part. The bad part is that I only realized I was staring, because he looked at me . I blushed scarlet, and avoided zoning out for the rest of class. As mortifying as it was in the moment,...

Okay, this is a sincere post to say one thing: WHY ARE ALL THE GUYS MY TYPE THAT I FIND HOT SO MUCH SHORTER THAN ME!?!? I try not to be too superficial about appearances, but one of my only deal breakers is when a guy is shorter than me. I can deal with the same height, or even an inch under, but literally every hot guy I see is multiple inches shorter than me. It's not even like I'm super tall or anything. The average adult male height in the US is 5'10, and I am exactly that. So why is every hot guy 5'8 or under? It honestly doesn't even make sense. All the guys that are taller than me are not my type. It is quite frustrating.

Hello interwebs! I am here today to address an important issue I have noticed in my 3ish weeks at college: There are a lot of hot guys. Like a lot. But, before you misinterpret my words, the many guys (and their overwhelming hotness) are not the issue. Definitely 100% not. The issue resides in the fact that it is next to impossible to determine if even a single of these mega-hot dudes swings my way. I always used to think that I had a pretty decent gaydar. Only, gaydar doesn't work so well when you go to school with 60K other people. Now, unless it's really obvious, it's hard to be sure. I mean, was the cute guy in the elevator checking me out, or did he just like my shirt and spend a second too long wondering whether he can buy one like it at the campus bookstore? It's confusing as all hell. For some people, their heterosexuality is obvious (like in the case of my sister's best friend's amazingly H.O.T. boyfriend). Obviously he is straight (rather sadly too, ...

Today marks the end of my second official week of classes at college, and this weekend will be my third weekend of living in the dorm. It's a bit surreal to be looking back now. Three weeks of freedom. Three weeks of independence. Three weeks of confusion. You know, in the movies they tell you that college is when you can finally be accepted for who you truly are. The gay characters in movies are always suddenly out of the closet and living fabulous lives. Well, I am here to tell you that this is not the case. Rather, I have baggage leftover from high school in a couple different forms: First, I have no experience with casually coming out. How do you tell someone that you've known for a week that you are gay? Are you even supposed to tell them? I mean, I feel like it's an important fact about that I might want to bring up, especially since its a side not many of my high school friends know, but its just so awkward. And the longer that I go on without telling this ne...

Ah, so here we are. I meant to start this blog and anonymously chronicle my life as I left for University and experienced new things. Only that didn't happen because of one factor I forgot to consider: I procrastinate everything. Not only that, but I am also extremely forgetful (as I am sure you all will come to discover). So, here I am, two weeks into the start of my Freshman Year, and just now starting this up. I guess I should get to posting and so I can catch y'all up on whats happened to me so far.